Negaraku

Have you ever seen a ship sinking? I would think it would be a slow and painful process watching a huge cruise liner sinking and people are scrambling out and there is fire and the fire reflects itself on the ocean surface and in the eye of the passengers save those who have relatives and loved ones deep down in the dark blue sea; cause in their eyes it's probably tears and tears as we all know are not really good reflectors on account of them being very runny.

I haven't.

But probably felt the same way after hearing about today's bomb attacks on churches.

The government is awesome in tackling the situation just splendid! They want to crackdown on suspects using the ISA (Whoopeee!) and they want to crackdown on websites "encouraging" illegal demonstrations (WHOPPPEEEE!) And guess which websites and who are the people going to be caught in this huge Idontgiveafuck fishing net the government is releasing?

Just guess.

Bloody fucking hell, do they think we are stupid and can't see through this ridiculous facade. Do they think people are going to fall for this false sense of heroism and sacrifice they will probably spew all over the place.

"Of course we had to crack down on sites like malaysiakini and blogs by opposition members/supporters. It's for the better good."

We're not dumb! We can see this is a bloody excuse to shut down opposition channels and platforms. We know after what happened today (probably fucking orchestrated by the government themselves. which makes it even scarier and more disgusting) that demonstrations regarding false imprisonment and human rights and murders swept under the carpet will never see light again.

What's worse, is all of this - The bombings, the restriction of the use of the word Allah in bibles, it could all be a ploy. Just mere distractions to keep us rakyat entertained while they just fuck us from behind.

It's rape.

Tonight's dinner was grim. Dad and I were shocked and stunned and depressed. I swear I could see tears in his eyes. The topic of the night was this country, what is happening, what has happened. And it's shameful and appalling. To tell you what I'm so mad about or what my dad is so mad about...I wouldn't even know where to start. Seriously. How do I start? Altantuya? ISA? Teoh's murder? Censorship of main medias? Racism in politics? Corruption?

I use to tease my dad about always talking about politics with his friends and the uncles. I use to tell him he was exaggerating. He's not. That's what's fucked up. He's not.

Bagaikan kacang lupakan kulit. Something like that. I wanted to do that so badly today. Just wash my hands clean, say I GIVE UP OKAY! YOU WIN! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT WITH THIS GAME YOU CALL MALAYSIA!

But when I think about it. If I don't care, a rakyat, a citizen of a country which I love so much, which I call home, if I don't care,

Who fucking will?

oO;

Jal. Do you still have that epic SMS i sent you when I failed my driving test or did it die along with your smexy-blue-flip-DanHumphrey-Motorola?

pls pls pls pls tell me you have a copy of it somewhere.

I had so much free time today (boss MIA due to FLU i managed to spread to him over the week), I literally read a year's worth of Rachel Yau's blog. No, i am not stalking. I am just merely looking for amusement and her blog is amusement. if you want to read, click on click.

that was when i stumbled across her post about failing driving, and I was reminded of how frustrated i was when i failed. i threatened to cabut the JPJ's janggut wei. Damn ganas. And the amount of swearing i did, this lifetime shall not be enough for forgiveness.

and now, nearly 2 years later, i am still a disaster of an excuse for driving.

i am NOT proud.


forward the sms to me if you ever find it. EPIC-ness.

P/S : why the fishsticks all the fashion ppl like to spam ppl's cbox wan ah? >.>

Capsicum 1

All of a sudden I had the urge to layan my tablet for the first time in don't know how long. I guess this is the first time I'm actually using it properly, and not just unpacking, installing it, draw a few lines and shove it aside for another 6 months.

This time around I've been more productive I guess. I thought I should train and get used to the tablet as it is quite hard. Not very used to it yet. This is what I came up with. I couldn't draw a figure cause it just ends up quite screwed up so I thought of the easiest thing to draw/paint, a capsicum! So here is it is,



I kinda like it. Compared to my real life paintings, i think this is better. But then the experience is different so its hard to compare but the steps and methods are the same I guess. Real life acrylic isn't as smooth as this I suppose. I used Corel Painter for this. I have to point out the lack of brush options for this as well so I made do with what I had.

Process...

1. Sketch (pencil)


2. Lighting study


3. Underpaint

4. Colour layer


5. Finishing

Well if you're not too enthusiastic about it because its not too realistic and too detailed, it is not suppose to be. It is meant to look somewhat accurate and realistic from a distance so yea, just to add a disclaimer/warning/explanation first haha. Did it quite fast I think, definitely not 4 hours.

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FUCK MEE!!!!!!!!! Why won't the University say YES or NO already???!

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If Lautner and Swift got married....

they'd both be Taylor Lautner!

to which their kids in the future would go :

"Hi meet my mum, Taylor Lautner!"
-kid shakes hand with Teardrops on my Guitar star, completely in awe until.....
"Hi meet my dad, Taylor Lautner!"

HAHAHHAHAHA. (kids break down in laughter)


i love them and all lah, but the combination is just pure slapstick. i got the the wind that they broke up (were they even official to begin with?) at work on msn news! but what i found most interesting wasn't the news itself, but comments the very very bitter public made. the arguments got so out of hand, the comments weren't about the Lautners anymore...

some even ended up asking each other to jump off a building and going back to school, just to name the cleaner ones. haha

the epic-est comment would be this :

"Phew!"


HAHHHAHAA. i'm choking already

wo beh tahan ahhhhhhhh!

it takes 30 minutes, two restarts, and several loud bangs from my hand to fire up my desktop at work. and now it's still lagging -.-

my warranted computer at home also went on holiday. it's going to take nearly a month to bring it back. GRR. WO BEH TAHAN AH!

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i had a good christmas this year! family was very in the mood to celebrate, spent saturday at Huey Ee's baking our hearts out (GTK!), and Avatar was such a good movie! ;D

CK, relax lah. I agree HD can be pretty ugly due to the clarity (nothing real life is actually THAT clear). Even movies look too clear on HD. But it's all about getting used to. Quit being an old man and embrace the technology!

Wanna show Perrineau your Mercutio

What do you get if you mix a Commodore 64 and men in red tracksuits?

Datarock.



what the...?

A Part of Me Died Today

A part of me died today. Like anyone who has experienced some part of them dying, I feel very sad.

I watched Avatar today, but before I watched Avatar, I was walking around wasting time before the movie started. That was when I found out FFXIII is already out. No not the yeng alot of swords FFXIII, but it is the girl one. At that point I was quite happy and I immediately texted Ming hopefully giving him enough peer pressure to force him to buy.

Then as I walked further, I saw another game shop showing the trailer for the game. And that's when it happen. As I walked closer to take a closer look at the game in its full glory... 3 words naturally came out of my mouth in utter disbelief.. "It's so ugly" and I can assure so I wasn't very secretive about my opinion.

I mean I was just so shocked, drowning in disbelief but most of all just felt so sad because the two major elements of the game or rather any game on the PS3 actually self-destructed the game. I'm talking about the PS3's potential for awesome graphics and Blu-Ray. What I meant when I said that the game was so ugly was that it is so real that it looks so fake, so ugly. Jal would know what I'm talking about since we shared similar thoughts at the Blu-Ray movies we watched.

The graphics, design and art is everything what you expect from Square-Enix. I'm sure despite the poor sales as Ming mentioned, it will go on to be a big hit. However, I honestly think Blu-Ray isn't going to do games or even movies any good, at least in my book. When I watched the trailers and stuff in SD(standard definition) everything look so good, it felt natural, familiar somehow. But compare FFXIII with older FF titles, the feeling its just not there I feel.

I'm sure you guys probably don't get what I mean and it is probably this opinion will only be mine alone, but it really adds to my disgust of the HD revolution, all these hyper-real nonsense. Argh. Bring back SD, bring back the old times!

See la next year,they all sure CMI

I wanted to post something that was more pop-music-thrashing like but I was thinking, I should be less confrontational. So yea, introducing Metric! I was googling one of their tracks just now that I heard on FIFA10 and explore abit more and I can really tell you they are very nais indeed. Here are some starter packs for you all. The lead plays the synths! =D







Before I go, I shall leave you an environmental message by Sunway. xD

Christmas Wish List

it's that time of the year again, and I'd be surprised if i even get one item on my list. But i'm going to write it all down anyways.

1. become leaner. notice how i've stopped saying thinner cuz everybody keeps telling me im anorexic just because i've stopped eating rice on a daily basis. i just want to be leaner! keyword is in italics, stop obssessing people!

2. skinnies dari topman (the gorgeous and very rare shade of blue) a whooping rm199. so not worth it, but so craving. PLEASE GO ON DISCOUNT. it's all im asking. ;)

3. a cloth hoodie that is so creamy soft it will kill you. i saw one on a model at tumblr, and have been looking out for one ever since. saw one at topman and AX, but both not thin enough. i am oh-so-loving the collar design. can't seem to post the pic here....

4. plane ticket to the UK/ NZ. i want to go away for a month on a backpack trip. can some windfall PLEASE fund me.

5. macbook/laptop. i hate sharing the computer with my bro at the mo. and it keeps breaking down as well.

6. my own car. sob sob. this is coming soon. very hopefully.

i'm pretty sure there's more. as i said, except for no.1, the rest are not in my control. despite two jobs, i doubt i'll be disciplined enough to save up for the biggies. (except the clothes)

oh well.

happy birthday CK. we cant hang today is all jit's fault. i give u power to blame him.

dunwan to friend u adi JIT. when is ur thinggie majinggie? details pls. we want to come leh.

don't even know if u still check the blog.

i have loads of photos to post from my end of college trips. stupid computer fail me again, just wait ya.

love love love! (sigh... back to work time)